Drawing...yup I'm drawing again...

It has been about 10 years since I was doing any type of art...long ass time!!  Art brings out emotion and sometimes that emotion can be so strong that you want to throw the paintbrush or pencil right across the room just to end the world you get lost in.  I had been so scared of that emotion after years of numbing myself, but I am at a place now where I am accepting the past and the events that have ruled my life for so long...it took a long time getting here but I am finally on my way!

I started out with flowers because I have always been good at those and I needed to start out with things I knew I wouldnt get mad at that it wasnt coming out perfect and that would have made me give up.  I still see every single mistake but slowly I am accepting those errors, because I am only human and there is no such thing as perfect.

I am just starting to branch out to other pieces of nature, I love drawing nature, other things are beautiful and fulfilling to draw or paint but nature lets me be creative and keeps me peaceful.  I have even sold 1 of my drawings and I gave 1 of my favorites to Steve's mom for mothers day and she loved it, they had no idea that I was artistic...surprise :)

While I am sketching the rest of the world goes away it is the best treatment for my anxiety yet...it even works better than the tranquilizer meds they give you these days.  So I found my natural valium...coping mechanism.

My attitude has been becoming more and more positive as I accept the nightmares of my past for what they are and learning from it all instead of letting it control my life in a negative way.

I can't wait to create more and more!!

That is 1 of my latest creation, I decided to try my hand at flowers that exist in nature...this is my favorite drawing yet.

I will keep posting more and more about my art and my journey to getting healthy...physically and emotionally!

Hugs and love <3